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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
"Evacuate the dance floor"
Heyy.
Blogger is totally screwed.
And the whole day I really wanted to post this long emo post. hahaha.
I really got irritated today.
It was okay in the morning.
Went to 1/6 to chat/get back my pen. In the end, i helped them with their geog homework they were hopelessly copying from each other, LOL.
I felt really happy.
It rained, made me happier.
Then lessons started and my day just started going down the drain.
Ended school early, packing up was PFFFFT. I totally like. moved house or something! wth.
Duty was PFFTTBLEHHHSHIT.
Starting was okay. But after that I just felt so so so tired.
I actually knocked out in the den. for 1/2 an hour.
Woke up and suddenly saw Jaslyn's face poking in, asking me whether i took the listening compre exam. Hmmm. Scared the hell out of me. haha.
I just felt like crying the moment i woke up.
I didnt want to stay back just to walk people to 3e1. i wanted to do smt more productive like study. or better still, drawwww. I really have to draw something (!) otherwise my heart will feel very very heavy like how its feeling now. gosh.
I think im complaining alot. Maybe im pmsing. idc la. bleh.
-wallows in self pity-
okay. I think things are getting better. msn makes my day. :D
haahha.
-recovers-
#TRACY``
THE LITTLE PEA
5:41 AM
Friday, July 17, 2009
"you showed me faith is not blind,
I dont need wings to help me fly.
Miracles happen once in a while,
When you believe."
TkGSPB Prefects' Investiture 2009.
17th July
I think this was the best PI ever. (: Considering that it was our turn to plan it.
I started the day feeling supersuper nervous. haha. But then later I read my horoscope and it said.
Today you will be feeling more busy then ever. However at the end of the day, you will feel tired, but more so of happy.
I was like YAY. Haha only I choose to believe in this kind of thing. hee. (anyway, it was true.haha.)
Went to school. Made a wrong desicion of going to class first, cos like. when i walked from class to hall, i ran into so many people who STARED and STARED and STARED even more. -.- whats wrong with wearing courtshoes and stockings and a formal uniform, making so much noise while walking through the void deck at 6.45am, and showing that paiseh look on my face?
okay now i know. :/
Anyway. dance rehearsal at 6.50am, and I think we improved so much since wednesday. (: Haha. not to be over confident or anything. but. The difference is just. :O haha.
Went back to class and then out of class again when i saw suiger. decided to help her with the files despite my blisters. hahahah. then again, when i walked into the classes they stared even more waaaah. D:
SS teacher was late. so me, tana, chris, wee, and joanne decided to practice. hahahha! dancing in class. HAHAH. it was quite funny.
Almost slept during SS. omgg. the tiredness all set in already. I was thinking, how to last through the day like that? ://// hahaha.
Chinese! we didnt take gong han CA. :D so we chatted in the corner. then left class early at 9.15am. :D Hee. Suddenly everyone seemed to appear at the den, and everything started to get abit chaotic. esp decor. omgg. hahha. the footprints, souvenirs, and guestbook! omg. my heart like. missed 20 beats cos of the constant shocks from SOMEONE. -.- haha.
Had last rehearsal, and everything just suddenly felt so real. Haha okay I meant, it didnt feel like a rehearsal la.
Then people started strolling in. OH some guests from RI and Xinmin turned up when they were not supposed to! Haha! then everybody kaypoh and went to look. it was so funny. haha.
Then Ratana and I went to attend to the guests, omg. it was very fun.
he asked me why the male toilet is pink
Argh. Anyway. Being at the reception table is very fun! hahaha. took alot of photos. haha.
The real thing.
The GOH arrival was very very scary! But she's very nice! haha. we asked her whether she wanted the bag for the souvenir. okay that part was funny.
Walk in was good. I think. I couldnt see myself. Anyway. the adrenaline just rushed up into my head. Made me feel so high. :D
board bow was okay. oh! then we sat, and i couldnt find the right position to sit. so i kept shifting. -.- i think it was very obvious that i leaned back on my chair cos my back was killing me.
When they started with the investiture, when snl was called, my heart almost flew out cos i didnt know what to do. I forgot everything. Then cos of thalessimia, i think, when i stood up i felt like plopping down again. then i really couldnt stand properly so i was shivering like mad. felt like i was gonna fall of the stage. i was thinking, if that happened, whether anyone will catch me. -.-
nevermind. anyway i didnt fall off. haha. after that, mostly everything went well. :D
performance! omg! i had sooo much fun. (: everything dont care already, just dance. hahaha. elysia took video haha. i think it was so cool.
PB song, tk philosophy and anthem were super high! I really said, after PI i'll scream, and i didnt know screaming feels so good! :D haaha.
when curtains closed everyone just went on hugging spree. then i realised ratana is so nice to hug. (:
The hugging spree continued for the whole day ahaa. Clearing up, and i felt bad for decor cos the moment i wanted to help everything gone already. -.- what kind of IC am I?! ):
Food Time. Food was okayyy. But no eclairs! D: haha. i think i drank more than i ate. :D gave out cards. gosh i didnt know it was so hard to find some people HAHA.
Photo taking! we went to comp lab 3 first to cool down. Gosh. Sharon, Nicole, BiBi and I started our nonsense again. o.O It was very very very funny. Should have took video. (: hahaa.
standing in line! Oh it felt like class photo taking! me wee and chris were standing in that exact same position can! so cool. (: but then again felt abit claustrophobic while waiting for the Principal to come. haha.
Exco photos were cool. in the field. hmmm. haha. but me and wee missed the jumpshot. haha. shoot. exactly, shoot.
[okay omg digress, i just cried.]
anyway. -wipes tears-
cam whored at the achievement board! it took soooo long to pose for our first SNL photo! i really really love snl so much. yes we might me total losers, but at least we have fun together as a comm. (:
went to the studio for cake and acknowledgements. omg the juniors really made my day. idk. im just really happy to have such awesome friends around me. im really grateful for all this.
i didnt eat the cake.
the 6 of us had this mini escape plan. ratana and i will leave before the juniors, then the pops will go together. taa-daa! we made it not obvious that we left early to go out and playyy. :D hahaha.
ooh getting out of courtshoes us such a wonderful feeling! and stockings too! i think i let out a little ahh when i took my stockings out. :D hahah lol!
went macs with them. omg so hilarious. andrea squeezing the milo. -.- dont know whats wrong with ther other 4, but they keep whispering things. :/ haahahha. i had to leave early but i was already late. took bus home with sotong. when we left. hmmm. they whispered even more. nvm.
she wanted to throw her milo but missed. omg it was so funny! haahhahah. then she said i was zi-lianning. wth right! hahhahaha.
okay it was really really mad on the bus with sotong. our convo really made me so happy. she clipped my bag to hers. hmm. then. she refused to answer me whether she was straight or not. HAHAH. maybe she's not? (: hahah. -raises eyebrow- haha. okay. but i have to say im really thankful for having a junior like her. (:
okay. hmm. i got home late and got scolded. really regretted it. but then again. maybe not? :/
ahah. went for tuition feeling half dead due to fatigue. so i told desiree to wake me up if i fell asleep halfway. hah! but then i had this horrible gastric-like-pain that almost killed me.
if i rate it on a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being go hospital since it was so near), i rated it 7.5. couldnt walk. felt like crying. ): but i ate all my meals properly lor! grr.
however, somehow, no matter how pain it was, i still felt happy. (see! my horoscope was right).
i felt this sense of satisfaction. this sense of relief. after all that we've been through the past 2 months, it made me sleep so soundly without anymore pain.
pictures!
Taking Temperature? Using the primary school thermometer. So cute. :D
oooh who's hotter? (:
Now's not the time to sleep. hahahah.
Jaslyn looks so innocent! :O
Ratana this is no time to emo. (:
Juniors, im not flashing. It was just very hot. hahah.
SNL! (: yay.
Nurul decided to extra haha.
So many Losers! haha! and thahira and krystel look like "Total Losers". heeee. (:
Sorry I dont know why so orange. I think it was the lighting. haahaha. :D
Yay. Im glad the souvenirs were. well. nice. :D
I have to thank people!
firstly,
i have to thank mummy for giving birth to me and letting me experience this wonderful event 14 years into my life. :D
Thankyou Ratana, for everything. Thanks for always being there for me. Thanks for supporting me. Thanks for encouraging me whenever i felt so so sad and lonely. Thanks for being someone i can always turn to whenever i need help. Thanks for giving me courage to do what i love. Thanks for sharing wonderful memories with me; happy ones, sad ones, lame ones, just all of them. Thanks for always standing up for me. Thanks for protecting me like your younger sister. Thanks for helping me sort out my thoughts when I felt lost. Thanks for being so similar to me! Haha. In every way. Im also beyond glad to know you, and its an honour and a gift that I have. Its a gift having you as my dear friend. If I could I would just tie you up and never let you go cos I treasure you so much. But no I wont cos. Its wierd. Anyway. You get what I mean. I thank you with all my heart for being you. (:
Thankyou Kahmin, for being my jie. Thanks for your support, care, concern and friendship these 3 years. You made me feel what its like to be cared for, sincerely. Ever since the first flagday, I knew that it was great having a senior like you. 3 years have passed in a flash, and I think both of us have grown up quite abit. I dont want you to leave tk, but you have to. I will cherish the memories of us in interact and pb and never forget it. Thanks for being so supportive. Thanks for your kindness. Thankyou for being there for me.
Thankyou Nicole! For being ever so caring. Thanks for hugging me right after the results. I just felt so relieved to have you around when results were announced. Im sorry I know I'll abandon you a few times in pb in the future, but I hope you'll understand why, and I also hope that you know that in my heart, you'll always be my friend and I'll give you 10 000 hugs whenever you need it. (: Thankyou.
Thankyou Charlene Wee. Thanks for being a great OAIC, and much of your effort contributed to the whole pb being able to enjoy such a great PI. Thankyou for staying strong. I know it was hard and there was alot of stress on you while you were planning, and Im sorry if I ever made you pissed or anything. Im sorry if I was ever pissed with you or anything. But I understand now, and I really appreciate your efforts.
Thankyou Chris. Thanks for being a great friend! Stress as programmes IC was scary huh. I know you have worked hard, and even though programmes is alot of behind-the-scenes-work, I have to thankyou for planning out such an enjoyable PI. None of this could have happened without you.
Thankyou Decor people. I'll start with melissa.
Thankyou Melissa Wong. For being a wonderful AI/C who has helped me so much, and not getting angry whenever i throw alot of work onto you all of a sudden. Thank you for being super funny at decor meetings. Thankyou for being a great friend, and a really responsible prefect as well. Congratulations on your getting into exco! PUBs commchair and you didnt even know it. hahahhaha. Green tea! (:
Thankyou Marissa! For being a great A I/C. Thankyou for putting in your very best for decor. The guestbook and school decor turned out really well, and I heard good reviews. -smiles brightly- Thankyou for having alot of initiative! I wouldnt know where I'd be without you to help me out throughout these 2 months. Thankyou also, for being such a fun person to be with. (:
Thankyou Andrea the sotong. I cried just know cos of your post okay. your fault. -shows pathetic face and folds arms- But Thankyou for being such a nice junior, who actually felt inspired because of what I said. Thankyou for being supportive and very very funny, who just has never failed to make me laugh. esp. on buses. hahah. Thankyou for assuming responsibility when given, and thankyou for setting the school decor while I was away doing something else. Thankyou for constantly running up and down getting things one by one, and thankyou for being the one who volunteered to do so. I know after that you felt very hot (temperature wise!), but you didnt complain, and that made me feel bad, but very grateful. So thankyou for being such a nice junior! (:
Thankyou Elizabeth Young the bee! Your intelligence and discipline is so cool. Thankyou for your constant reminders which also encouraged me to always keep on my toes. (: not literally though. Thankyou for being a great AV pop! Everything went great. Im honoured to be your senior, and im very lucky to have a junior like you. Thankyou for being supportive, and even created a cheer for me and ratana. hahah! its super cool, and very very nice. You've made me feel so appreciated. Thankyou for being bubbly too, online and in person. Thankyou for loving and understanding art too! I've never had such a wonderful conversation about art with anyone before in my life, cos I never thought anyone would understand. Thankyou for being awesomely awesome. (:
Thankyou Jaslyn Chan! Its nice talking to an ex-KCPian like you. hee. Thankyou for your ideas and intelligence. You've helped me solved many problems we met on the way. Decor really needed someone who can think calmly in a chotic situation, and you have done that. Thankyou for being someone very nice to be with. Thankyou for being a great junior and a great friend!
Thankyou Isabel! Firstly, you are very cute. Haha. As I said 1000 times before, your laugh is so funny I laugh at your laugh. haha! You are also very smart, and very dilligent. (: Thankyou for getting all the toilet rolls from australia! saved my life. :D okay. now whenever I see toilet roll, I'll think of you! haha! Drink more green tea okay! (:
Thankyou Elysia. I know currently you're angry. rather, half angry and half upset. Putting that aside, I have to thankyou for being in decor and livening up decor meetings. I know you're disappointed about yesterday, and we didnt mean to take it out so hard on you. Whatever it is, perservere in whatever you do okay.
Thankyou the rest of the decor people! I sorry I dont have time to mention every single one of you here, so I gave you guys cards. :D Hope you'll read them and continue to maintain your standard, and better still, hope you guys can always strive for improvement. (:
Thankyou PB teachers! Esp Mdm Lim for being so kind enough to let us close our eyes during rehearsals. (: Haha. I felt so happy to see the joy and pride on your face while we walked down. It made me feel happy and hounoured and full of pride to be a prefect in the exco. I thankyou and the teachers for giving me this opportunity and I promise I'll strive to be a good comm chair.
Thankyou Seniors for your encouragment and scolding! I wasnt there on wednesday, but I heard alot about it and it scared me just to hear about it second hand. whatever it is, i know that you scolded us because you were encouraging us and pushing us to make PI an event to be remembered.
Im not sure if I have anymore people to thank, but i'll just thank everybody for putting in effort, to help me of help the pb.
This was the best PI yet.
#TRACY``
8:05 PM
Sunday, July 05, 2009
"해가 저물면 밤이 찾아오듯
내 사랑 어김없이 찾아오죠
걸음보다 더 빠른 내 마음이
오늘도 그대에게 가죠..."
-화신
However, this part makes ijimae sound like a stalker. :/
Helloooo.
Happy youth day!
But im not really happy and i dont think anyone is that much estatic about this either.
PB is going at a really fast speed now. Much emotions pouring out from many ppl. Its. I dont know. This feels similar to what it felt like during interact elections. ):
I dont like revealing of results. It always makes me cry.
I just finished my poster. haha. I think its too colourful. But nevermind. I think it describes who I am as an artist and a person. (:
vote for me; hand-in-hand, We shall create a better tomorrow!
"가질 수 없는 꿈인 걸 알기에
두 눈에 눈물이 흐르죠"
I know this dream is unattainable, and so, my eyes fill with tears.
#TRACY``
i want to talk to you.
THE LITTLE PEA
9:33 PM
Saturday, July 04, 2009
“是谁从我天空摘走了星星？
HEYY.
I must duo jiang hua yu. :D Oral's coming up.
Anyway. I HAVENT UPDATED. omg! whats happening to my life-.-
Im just getting soo busy with sec 3 life that i forget alot of things and i give up alot of my wants.
I just hope this is worth it all.
WEEK 1.
Monday.
Got scolded by mrs cheong for sleeping in class. Shermaine didnt wake me up, GRRR.
I promise I'll try not to do that again.
Decor meeting was cancelled, -slaps head-
Tuesday.
6 meetings in 1 day. This is when school life all set in.
Morning was like. meeting with seniors about our video, and at the same time, i organised a decor mtg. BAD BAD timing. cos. then they waited for quite long haha.
After school was our first decor-do-stuff-meeting, and interact exco meeting. super crap can! so much nonsense. HAHHA.
for decor, We had to finish the guestbook in 1 day, which was impossible, BUT WE DID IT. (:
After it stood up high, i just felt this. HAPPINESS which is very hard to describe.
It was fun. (: I dont know. Our last meeting was during holidays, then. It was nice to get back together again at the SAC. :D
I have great juniors, and im super lucky for that. (:
Wednesday.
No interact cos CCAs were cancelled. Anyway. It was mid week and life was. uhm. SIANNN.
-and its only 1st week of school-
Decor do stuff mtg again, this time, doing school decor. deadline: Friday.
Had this meeting with Mdm Goh and Ms Ashikin too. Ms Ashikin is very nice, and she has great ideas. (: Oh Mdm Goh said Mrs Hoy has given birth alr! to a baby boy. (: and like. the day before she was still at a meeting in school, while having contractions. HAHA. then she left school at like 5pm and gave birth like. 12 hours later. She makes it look so easy. hahahha.
decor was lame, as usual. (:
Thursday.
I cant remember what happened.
I just remember during decor, we told ghost stories. -USE FAB!-
HAHAA. Inside joke. Anyway, bonded, were lame, usual.
Went online I think. Had a pleasant suprise. hahha. (:
Friday.
RATANA LAU CAME BACK!
Gosh. I was happy. (:
After all, she pang-sehed me for like. dunno how long! D:
Anyway.
We changed places in class, which made ppl abit upset. IM SITTING BESIDE XUZHEN! yay!
She choped me, sorta. hahahhaha. Then its like. xuzhen me then tana is diagonally infront, an infront of me is weixiao de ren. (lu shuang) haha. I bet that area is gonna be super noisy. (:
haha. Its only 75% confirmed, I bet its gonna change though. nvm. see how.
Mr seah told us to write a letter to him about what we did during the hols and what we hope to achieve this term.
I dont know, but i pretty much poured out everything that I was bottling up in my heart.
I dont usually do that, but. writing that letter helped me set my direction for term 3, and now, I have my eye on the prize. ( L1R5 of 15, and. ______. yeah.)
Decor. (its like. everyday. hahha)
oh. i received an "L" to the power of 11 from mel wong.
Mel Wong is just insane. super lame, like me.
"the bridge is awesome, and so is TRACY TAN SHU WEI."
Goshhhhh. wasted 1 footprint. hahahah. actually 2, cos melwong followed, HAHAH.
then we were talking about green tea, polluting the juniors' minds. hahah.
green tea makes you pee,... and uhm.... nevermind. hahaha (:
home, and out again for tuition.
Desiree said. I think... i dont have H1N1.
That scares me. hahahhaha. but no la.
Saturday.
Woke up early today to go running, like WTH right! then went market with mummy WTH X2!
haha. i couldnt believe I did that, but now i feel so "golden girl". :D hahah! -sparkle in teeth-
Whatever it is, Im exhausted from the week, and i wish i can just plop down on this huge fluffy pillow and sleep until im satisfied.
But there aren't any huge fluffy pillows in life.
#TRACY``
Btw.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_i2weRmmem0
Watch, and vote for me! Haha. How to vote, im not too sure. :X
THE LITTLE PEA
6:25 AM